Hey Livia! Thank you for your detailed response and so sorry for the late reply, I wanted to make sure I had proper time to write you a reply.

I’m glad to hear everything is good on the home-front for you. Even when everything goes to shit you still have the people closest to you as support.

Account executive and designer? That’s the first time I’ve heard of that 😅 However it does sound like you are well on your way to figuring things out, step one is realising something has to change and that’s honestly sometimes the hardest fucking part I think. It means you gotta do some work, some soul-searching. That’s always a pain in the ass, why can’t we just be the way we should be out of the box? I guess life wouldn’t make a lot of sense, then.

I’m personally very happy about my decision to move from programming into UX design. Despite being a weird introvert I get so much energy from talking to people about how they use a product or service and what problems they have and I get so many ideas on how to make it better, smarter and easier. So I guess a good question is; what gives you energy? What boosts your mood? What makes you burn a little brighter? Also, if you’re looking for a place to be in between design, business and customer contact you should check out Product Manager or Product Owner positions, it’s a mix of all of these things you talk about.

Lastly and hopefully without sounding too sadistic I very strongly believe it’s the hard times which really shapes us as people. There is much to be learned — and to be gained — from struggle, moreso than always having success and doing all the right things. I mean, at least shit can’t get any worse, right? Oh wait, Corona-virus just hit the entire world and is completely crippling world economy and health….. Fuck 😛

P.S. (because I already said “lastly”) I’m completely blown away by your line “you made me feel comfortable with not being comfortable” I think that is just so well said 👏 I’m thrilled I was able to do this for you in a world so focused on achievements, success and always doing exactly the right thing.

Fuck that.

Have a great day/evening!